First Day of the End of My Life

First Day of the End of My Life Jumping off into something new tonight Spill all my regrets in the highway light They might call me a coward, and they might call it a sin But I'll never have to hear those words again. I took pills the doctors gave me for my brain It's a chemical imbalance from what they know. I never felt much different or the same. With the way I feel I wouldn't even know. So I said goodbye to both my mom and room And I walked towards all the things I'll never do I almost called my friends and see what all of them would say But they never really answer anyway Maybe someone else can use my eyes or heart. I thought about taking pills to buy them time. I couldn't take the chance that I'd survive With a new regret in the hospital light. I had a thousand different answers when the problem's what I need In a city lay in ruins with the carpenter asleep And the architect was digging through the ash to find the plans they'll never need At least not for me. Dear Family, don't cry I took years to find a meaningful and peaceful place to die So I'll be fine Sincerely, Caroline --- First Day of the End of My Life - Amigo The Devil