Leviathan

Ever since I can remember it has lived within It waited and it slumbered, waited and it slumbered One day you awakened the leviathan It wasn't much longer till it began to hunger Some kind of cosmic wager from the devil to God And I was in the middle, I was in the middle They pushed it down inside me so I'll never resolve The answer to this riddle, answer to this riddle How it hangs on me Haunting every step that I take Like a big brother Whose shadow you could never escape Or your drunk stepfather You didn't measure up in his eyes He laid his hands upon you Now go your way and do likewise So I drowned it in the ocean depths It just came back stronger So I tried to smother it Beneath my sheets and comforters Scared it would take control If I don't extinguish it But there's days I think I'd feel that way no matter what I did First time that I hit you I just lost control Your final shred of refuge drained away and left you Trembling there in front of me, completely exposed To the blackest of intention, past all intervention I gazed into your eyes and saw your motives and plans Hiding just behind the levee, just behind the levee I knew that if I gave you even half of a chance That one day when you're ready, like dead skin you would shed me Move onto something better A house with a two car garage Just leave me spinning downward; The bullet that you narrowly dodged Van't let you have that power You'd only screw it up anyway If you have no rudder You'll do whatever I say And we'll go on this way eternally Inside our private hell And I'll siphon pieces of you off Till you're an empty shell I've thrown it scraps for years To sate its appetite But this snarling beast that lives in me demands a sacrifice So you've been wandering the streets for days Well that's just fine with me I'm only thinking of that moment when you finally Come home and find me swaying here Beneath your tightened rope And I swear I hear some creature laughing there behind us both --- Leviathan - David Wirsig