Sober

I'm feeling colder no closure I got to keep my composure Cause you know we're never sober And I didn't wanna know the truth Can't see if it's me or you Cause you just wanna be my boo And you just pop up out the blue Oh, change my life and change the view I got a fucked up attitude Didn't wanna seem so rude Oh, my life just feels renewed Oh, on my mind oh you're tattooed I know your face and your perfume Oh fill the void and I'll assume I can't be upset because I know that I'll move on All the lying and the stealing in my eyes you can't do wrong, oh Said I been too patient but the wait is just too long, oh If you really love me make my drink a bit too strong And if we hit the bottom I'll be talking like I need it Oh, when she jump on top she be riding, got her sea-sick I'm not being distant I just wanna go and see shit I don't want the option cause I'll never fucking leave it Drugs in my system never seem to change Oh, if I could go there then I'd rearrange And I didn't think it was permanent like pain And I didn't wanna say, what you saying I wish I didn't feel like my brothers I've outgrown Oh, really wish I had my own place to call home Didn't think I'd regret all the love that I've shown But they'll remember my face where I'm going If I didn't have a reason to begin with Maybe then I just wouldn't even give a shit Maybe I'll just sit here and just take a hit Chill for a bit Get my mind collected and oh I'll see then Didn't think that you'd know what we believe in Didn't wanna let you go but we will leave then Saying my soul, my soul My heart, my heart Leave it oh where do we start I'm feeling colder no closure I got to keep my composure Cause you know we're never sober And I didn't wanna know the truth Can't see if it's me or you Cause you just wanna be my boo And you just pop up out the blue Oh, change my life and change the view I got a fucked up attitude Didn't wanna seem so rude Oh, my life just feels renewed Oh, on my mind oh you're tattooed I know your face and your perfume Oh fill the void and I'll assume Praying that we all never know what's new Praying that my brothers come and make it through Said I'm praying that I become a better you Oh, I listened to your words and everything you said No I didn't think you'd stay all up in my head And I just wanna let them go while I let them go I didn't think we'd do it while were on the road I didn't think we'd do it while were on the road I can't even talk about my innocence Cause when I roll out, y'know its militant Oh, I got to stay vigilante I'm still an innocent civilian Oh, trying to make that million Oh, you can knock twice just to see if I'm really in Cause I reel her in Ask me where I've been Just simple conversation Didn't look for no opinion Lost in conversation If we get undressed oh don't say that we're dating Too busy fixating on everything around me No complication only got the highest rating We're here dominating Can't you see the picture that I'm painting If I ever knew the purpose Then you know it B And I didn't think you'd know you got a hold on me Pull up forgot to mention You knew my every intention Oh, Summer breeze just ain't hitting the same Oh, I fill my lungs every fucking time it rains Call it a motive that we got to come and see Because of you I found a better version of me And maybe that's the message in my truth I found myself at the root Humble in my learning, I never denied Oh, the closest in my circle y'know we never lied Oh, I only fucking tried Oh, the places that we'd go I despise And if you look me in my eyes Oh, I hope you realize That I got love for you Oh, from this level I'm graduating So high that I'm levitating All the moves that I'm operating All the money I'm generating Oh no, no, no --- SOBER - J Grant