[Verse 1; Complete]
The cycle repeats,
Eat, fight til I sleep,
Wake up knowin my survival is bleak,
I don’t wanna die til I peak though,
If I leave though,
Please know that I rivaled at least.
Suicidal and deep,
Ever since high school
I been getting denied all the peace
That I seek,
Feels like I’m sitting in idle,
How can I sit here as an idol to heaps.
I’m too broken, empty n numb,
I thought that life was meant to be fun
But everyone envies a ton,
Friends come and go,
Then there’s eventually none.
So when we are done,
When at the end
How can we just surrender and run,
I wish somebody would lend me a gun
So I could split with a bang
And a letter that I penned for my mum
Cause I’ve had enough and I’m done with it,
This cold world can’t wait til I’m under it,
No wonder I’m drunk as shit,
Its like lotto when I’m low,
Just drink til my numbers picked.
A couple hundred sips,
And I’m looking at my wrists
When I think which one to slit,
And although it’s the
Tip of the iceberg,
When the tide turns,
You can see it’s a sunken ship.
When I’ve been slurpin like,
90 bourbon drys,
I deserve my pride,
Life could work,
If I’d fight the urge,
But I quite prefer to try,
Hide the hurt inside.
Still tryna find the surface,
Might find the purpose,
I’d like to work with,
I try to search,
But my life is worthless, Why?
I deserve to die.
[Chrous; Kogz and Complete?]
When I feel so numb
I just lose control
When I get this high, you just watch me fall
My death would be beautiful
My death would be beautiful
When I lose it all,
When I feel so numb
I just lose control
When I get this high you just watch me fall
My death would be beautiful
My death would be beautiful
When I lose it all
[Verse 2; Kogz]
Yeah,
Don’t tell me that I’m that dude,
Only did what I had to,
Bitch in the back room, sniffing.
Famous on the weekend,
Weekday back to camp food dinners,
Sad truth innit,
I been up and down,
Downing uppers,
Nothing drowns,
The comedowns given.
I keep fucken round,
I’m fucked without my day ones innit,
Came up wit em, uh.
Seen shit that would make you sick,
I seen ? and greatest hits,
I been fucked up wit em
And it made me this,
Made me rip veins
In the basement sink at 6 am.
Bitch play me n think I’m insane,
I been crazy
Since the day I sniffed weight,
I been faded,
As I sit with dim shade of
Fresh white tommy,
Gotta hide those piss stains,
So, don’t tell me that I’m famous,
Half the fucken time I don’t know
What my name is,
Half the cunts that I’ve met,
Only want a friend for the favours
n envy in haters.
Another day hating myself,
Cut myself with a blade,
Can’t say what I felt.
Still numb but they say that it helps,
I’d numb my own neck,
It’s a waste of a belt though,
So, I don’t fuck with you lame ones,
Wanna lead the game,
The same way that I came in,
Nameless,
Sick of these kids thinking I’m famous,
Sick of the hype,
Livin the life like I made it.
Yeah right, still faded as fuck,
Still drunk in the backyard, pissing
wishing on stars
I see with double vision,
I still wanna die,
Surprised no one listens.
[Chrous]
[Ending; Kogz Talking]
When I feel so numb
I just lose control
When I get this high you just watch me fall
My death would be beautiful(x2)
When I lose it all
