Tell the Truth

I could tell the truth if I wanted to. It's so sad to see, you're working me over. Oh Lord, again?! I'm so glad to be... partially sober, I've lost too many friends. How can I compete with the man that I promised you? I tried so hard to bend. Don't tell me who I was or who I want to be. You're doing it again. I can tell that you saw all my love when he came into our lives. Does it hurt you inside to know that I'll be there for him? I swear that I will fight, till I die if that's what it takes. But for now, I'm alive, and I'm standing tall, for Haven's sake. I couldn't tell the truth if I wanted to. I've thrown ambit ion to the fire, hope melted away. You let your promises expire. And I swear that you'll never hear the end of this. These are the moments where I feel my heart skip a beat, trails of adulthood, only ice below my feet. These are moments that I feel your h and fade away, These are the moments that I wish that I had fucking stayed. These are the moments that I wish that I had put the pills down. These are the moments that I wish that I was in the ground. These are the moments where I wish that I could tell the truth. These are the choices that I made, this is me living without you.