D.T.A (Or: Lessons In Adapting To A Terrible Reality)

Breathe in, breathe out  On the surface, I'm kinda quiet  But losing my mind, deep down On the beat feeling defeated Peep the bleak sound  Watch it creep as they weep  Thoughts at their peak sprout  In the deep end of the season  Take a seat down Got the heebie-jeebies  I'm bleeding my needs now  On your knees now A-town up or peace down Put my feet down  Peace out  Leave out the devil in the details  Beyond the truth  On a bender identified as a rendezvous  Don't mind the few divine new loops  That i rhyme to and blind the youth   I'm mindful the lines are proof  I'm suicidal and quite attuned  To my idols who've tried abuse  Lose my sight, I don't like you dudes  Never mind, the pursuit of some shine I take flight and lose my damn mind  When I light a fuse  Bitch, I might still prove  I'm aligned with the lightning too  Every night, I recite the truth  Every time, I decide to annihilate  I'm maniacal Whatever hides in the back of my mind   I maintain i'm liable to convey  My undeniable claims   Sizable shames a stain  On my motherfucking impulse I remain contained in this  By default Try to escape my brain  As I try to revolt  Lies result in some pain  I can't fight or float on these waves  Reliable ways to go fucking violate fakes  Fuck it, the fire within  Plummets desires till I acquire new sins  That's just how I feel That's just how I feel That's just how I feel about it  Love, I can't be healed without it  Drugs, I cannot leave without it  Bitch, I will go lead this malice  Be about it, see about it  Don't beat around the bush  On the beat, I give 'em a push  With the ease, they give me a look like I'm evil I never ever could believe you  Read you like a book  You're so deceitful  Doom parallels truth Here's a new overview  Chaos ensues When desires are overdue  Over a few couple days  Far from sober boo   Exposed to the smoke That chokes all of the views of the flukes Some of them who I knew  The clues will evoke some new cud to chew   Put two and together, f******u dudes  Never lose my vendetta  I become attuned to the bruises and weather  I've succumbed to feuds  Somewhat rude, I've been better  What the fuck to do  When I'm in tune with the pressure  Crush these loops  When I rummage, on the regular  Bitch, does it register?  When I make the change for competitors  Bet your bottom dollar No rest assured Best be referred as the best  That you never heard  Embezzle a breath of fresh air  When they all stare  That's just how I feel That's just how I feel That's just how I feel about it  Love, I can't be healed without it  Drugs, I cannot leave without it  Bitch, I will go lead this malice  Be about it, see about it  Don't beat around the bush  On the beat, I give 'em a push  With the ease, they give me a look like I'm evil I never ever could believe you  Read you like a book  You're so deceitful  That's just how I feel That's just how I feel That's just how I feel about it  Love, I can't be healed without it  Drugs, I cannot leave without it  Bitch, I will go lead this malice  Be about it, see about it  Don't beat around the bush  On the beat, I give 'em a push  With the ease, they give me a look like I'm evil I never ever could believe you  Read you like a book  You're so deceitful