Outro

It's 5 in the morning As I'm writing down my feelings Running back to old endings I'm looking for new beginnings Helping out both my parents And looking out for my siblings It's bottom of ninth inning I'm swinging straight for the fences Still I'm running the bases Feeling like I'm alone I'm greeted with hugs and cheers The moment i make it home Wondering is it real Or will they let it be known The people that say they love Don't even pick up the phone To check and see how I'm doing Really I can't complain Cause as I'm painting my lane I ain't been doing the same Still I try to maintain Everything I done gained Tho I be feeling drained Thug it out what was trained In me Try to hide it but it's plain to see Thought i was strong Got me thinking how this came to be But Losing my granny made me feel i was delusional Other granny died, couldn't even hit the studio Whole world crashed, keep it pushing wasn't doable angry since a juvenile but this shit is unusual Juggling a lot had fought myself to keep me neutral Had to leave me girl at the time, I'm sorry beautiful At the time i didn't have what it takes You was trying to build, i was trynna escape Realities of the world while trying to pick my fate Just figured that i should do it alone if ima break Down I had a moment but had to pick up the pieces Tired of being tired Many nights I was sleepless Thinking bout what my granny would say When I'm at my weakest Taught me depend on no one It's always just me and Jesus So i had to believe it Apply it in real time Translate it to music Fuck hearing, you feel lines Encourage the soul searching Go look and you will find That when you down in the hole Just know that you will climb I'm Giving you real you can take it or leave it Stand on every word i say and i know That you see it Never steered you wrong once So you got to believe it This that lil pep talk you never knew That you needed Soul --- OUTRO - Markus Jay