Pick Up My Feelings

I swear I had my fair share of loss 'Nuff to have me crazy when I'm all up in my thoughts Running out of time, I got my eye up on the clock I'm just tryna make it for my family out the block And I know that we all tryna leave And I know they placing all they bets on me That's why I'm grinding every day of every week And I'm tired, but I'm trying, and I know I gotta pick up my feelings I been crawling, tryna get up out the deep end Gotta pick up my feelings 'Cause I ain't going nowhere if I'm stuck up in the deep end I been running headless with my heart up on my sleeve Seen too many things I shouldn't see by nineteen Mentally the oldest in a mob in front of me Started life a hunnid steps behind most other teams But Imma top shit Imma make it out and you can watch this Buy my mom a house not on this block bish You can watch this 'Cause Imma pick up my feelings I been crawling, tryna get up out the deep end Gotta pick up my feelings 'Cause I ain't going nowhere if I'm stuck up in the deep end Imma get up out this deep end I don't wanna talk if it ain't money talk I don't really talk because the money talks Don't come at me with gossip that's that dummy talk And if you getting toxic, I ain't scared to walk Just wanna feel the top on the low Just want it like a dog and a bone Gotta bless the highs, but fuck these lows And I'm feeling tired, but I'm trying, and I know I gotta pick up my feelings Gotta pick up my feelings Imma pick up my feelings 'Cause I ain't going nowhere if I'm stuck up in the deep end Imma get up out this deep end