Class Clown

I hope this doesn't freak you out But I thought I'd just say, "Hey" I know we've barely spoken out of school But it seems I've grown attached to the thought of you And to tell the truth, I use humor to mask my insecurities Oh I try to be funny, quite a bit And look at me now Stumbling over a joke you've probably heard before 'Cause all I'm paying attention to is the way you look at him So I cross the room and clear my head Wishing it was me instead Who always keeps you interested I close my eyes and count to 10 I need to stop overthinking it I might not be everything you asked for I know that And you might take a look at me and say "Is this the kind of guy who chases after me these days? Guys who use humor to mask their insecurities?" Well, I try to be funny, quite a lot And look at me now Stumbling over myself at a party I wasn't invited to Drink in my hand, trying to find a spot to sleep And I see you, you with him I start to drift off, nothing left but me and my thoughts Does she even know that I exist? I close my eyes and count to 10 I need to stop overthinking this I would ask you to take me as I am But it won't do any good Because what you see isn't who I am I would show you if I could I change the way I speak And how I act and what I say 'Cause I'm afraid that you won't like me any other way And I use humor to mask my insecurities So, I try to be funny all the time And look at me now Stumbling over the words of a song I wrote for you A song you'll probably never hear Because I'm too ashamed and too afraid What kind of person writes a song About a girl he's barely spoken to? I close my eyes and count to 10 I need to stop overthinking you