Panic Attacks in Paradise

Typical of me to go and ruin the party Everybody says they love me but I'm still broken hearted They call me Polly Pessimism, I'm a macabre Barbie (I love you) My boyfriend wants to love me but I won't let him I've been predisposed to trauma since I was eleven So I wrote a couple albums to let out some aggression I hate that I'm so self-deprecating More comfortable in bad situations Sucker for a little devastation And this always happens Panic attacks in paradise Piña coladas, I'm terrified I swear I'm not crying, the sun's just bright I'm having the best time of my life Panic attacks in paradise Hyperventilating under candy skies Telling myself that this is fine I'm having the best time of my life It's a big joke, ha ha, I love laughin' It's a big hoax, you're self-help happy 'Cause I'm okay, I'm pure propane On an open flame (watch me blow up) My boyfriend wants to love me but I won't let him I've been predisposed to trauma since I was eleven So I wrote a couple albums to let out some aggression I hate that I'm so self-deprecating More comfortable in bad situations Sucker for a little devastation And this always happens Panic attacks in paradise Piña coladas, I'm terrified I swear I'm not crying, the sun's just bright I'm having the best time of my life Panic attacks in paradise Hyperventilating under candy skies Telling myself that this is fine I'm having the best time of my life