The State I Am in

I was surprised I was happy for a day in 1975 I was puzzled by a dream It stayed with me all day in 1995 My brother had confessed he was gay It took the heat off me for a while He stood up with a sailor friend Made it known upon my sister's wedding day. Got married in a rush to save a kid from being deported Now she's in love I was so touched, I was moved to kick the crutches From my crippled friend She was not impressed Cause I cured her on the Sabbath I went to confess When she saw the funny side, we introduced my child bride To whiskey and gin To whiskey and gin. The priest in the booth had a photographic memory For all he had heard He took all of my sins and he wrote a pocket novel Called The State That I'm In So I gave myself to God There was a pregnant pause before he said okay Now I spend my days turning tables round in Marks & Spencer They don't seem to mind. I gave myself to sin, I gave Myself to providence and I've Been there and back again The state that I am in. I gave myself to sin, I gave Myself to providence and I've Been there and back again The state that I am in. Oh love of mine, would you condescend to help me? Cause I am stupid and blind Desperation is the Devil's work, it is the folly Of a boy's empty mind Oh and now I'm feeling dangerous Riding on city buses for a hobby is sad Why don't you lead me to a living end I promised that I'd entertain my crippled friend, My crippled friend. I gave myself to sin, I gave Myself to providence and I've Been there and back again The state that I am in. I gave myself to sin, I gave Myself to providence and I've Been there and back again The state that I am in. I gave myself to sin, I gave Myself to providence and I've Been there and back again The state that I am in. I gave myself to sin, I gave Myself to providence and I've Been there and back again The state that I am in. I gave myself to sin And I've been there and back again Oh yeah --- The State I Am In - Belle and Sebastian