STATE OF EMERGENCY!

They checkin' on me four times an hour, that's 24 7 Took my shoe laces and every wire up out the bedroom Knockin' like they witnesses of Jehovah Every time they ask me about my emotions I sink lower, I can't control it I made a friend today, a post traumatic stress ridden soldier We don't speak, but I noticed, not to slam the door when I close it He afraid of loud noises Me? I'm still hearing voices Got me lookin' around the room like There's plenty ways to do this Bed sheet 'round the doorknob, but yeah it might fall off Rip the curtain off, tie it around the bar up in the wardrobe I could punch the mirror, slit the wrist, bleed out in the corner Annoyed and I'm bored of these thoughts, 'cause they torture Who does the therapist see, when he needs therapy? Who does the shrink see, when his mind shrinkin'? Screamin' for help don't work, they'll tell you "be quiet" Now all this silence is just turning me violent, I wanna Break up out this bitch Break up out this bitch Break up out this bitch Break up out this bitch Break up out this bitch Break up out this bitch Break up out this bitch Break up out this bitch My sanity has grown legs, sprintin' for gold medals My pistol at fashion week, wearin' a jacket full of metal Put the kettle on and even that forgot how to whistle It's shouting demonic chants and singing hymns by the devil In the morning they're gonna put me upon them antidepressants It's nearly Christmas and I'm still the furthest thing from present When you break your arm, everybody wants to sign your cast But when you fucked up in the brain they run the opposite way So happy new year, I know it's late Yeah I've been in rehab, still feelin' the same Family swayin' me from relapse And I wish that all of my buddies wasn't on the ketamine Pour my heart out while I hug em and they forget everything And it hurts I feel like overdosing on empathy I feel everything and they don't feel a thing And it's killin' me --- STATE OF EMERGENCY! - Bexey