Trauma

Growing up I never had a lot of money I never had a phone Always was a little hungry Used to find it hard to sleep When I could hear my mother sobbing I was ten back then I didn't have a room Had to buy used shoes I hid behind tunes To avoid abuse And every time I fell I would blame it on myself Even if it was an accident Maybe it's not what I want Oh, I've seen better days And the moment fucking sucks But I'll be damned if I don't stop And, honestly, why not When nobody gives a fuck But sometimes I just can't help myself I wanna give up trying And start doing something else Sometimes I just get overwhelmed I know it's in my mind But I think I need some help 'Cause sometimes I just can't help myself I was an outcast Thrown out to dry and get laughed at Too shy to talk about home I always thought life was supposed to be cold And, oh, I've been so Lost without hope I got a window in my head, it's a casket You know I be wishing I was dead, but I mask it Maybe it's not what I want Oh, I've seen better days And the moment fucking sucks But I'll be damned if I don't stop And, honestly, why not When nobody gives a fuck But sometimes I just can't help myself I wanna give up trying And start doing something else Sometimes I just get overwhelmed I know it's in my mind But I think I need some help Because it's all I know My hands around my throat Pray that I won't let go This time around But every single time I try to shut my eyes I see the reason why I'm not alone Sometimes I just can't, but sometimes I just can't help myself I wanna give up trying And start doing something else Sometimes I just get overwhelmed I know it's in my mind But I think I need some help Sometimes I just can't help myself (I think we got it) --- Trauma - BoyWithUke