no one is reliable

Recently been going under Colder than the tundra You be sleeping on me slumber Only want to give you the cucumber Wouldn't give my heart I won't give my brain Used to think that I was smart Swear to god I've gone insane In times I lack awareness What some others call careless Rarely I get embarrassed Based on other peoples standards Not the type of dude to pander Though they don't like my candor I'm tryna be myself in a world full of cancer Keep it brief Chase relief From the pain and the stress Ran away I never left You know I'm sad you never guessed I regressed so far Pushed too hard That I dropped my guard Now my hearts in shards Grown numb for the world Numb for the pain Dumb for the girls Use my dick for a brain If it don't go well ain't got nothing to say Guess it's all my fault best be walking away Miss the good times I miss the old days I know my head spins when the Earth rotates And my thoughts crowd but they ain't got no space I been telling myself that it's okay But it's not though I was at the top floor And then I jumped off and I cracked my skull Down onto the pavement I ain't been the same since For this world I ain't ever had the patience Love to tell me what I lack Like it's a matter of fact You're jumping to conclusions don't expect me to react One time I had a good thing but it ended in a flash I see no one is reliable and I'm okay with that I put the weight upon myself I should not blame anyone else Nothing is permanent in this life the snow will melt And I've accepted that, but nonetheless Realizing this was painful I guess But once I learned the lesson it was easier to cope People in it for themselves I used to blame em, now I don't Friends don't worry bout your feelings they too worried bout their own I have to not worry about the things that I can not control Don't you catch my drift You following along I hope that one day someone proves this wrong But I will not hold my breath This ain't woah is me, this is real a f No one is reliable No one is reliable No one is reliable Except me