I'm Not Okay

[Verse 1] Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud But I built walls so high So they never even make a sound [Pre-Chorus 1] It's a mask, it's a lie It's the only home I've ever known Cause being who I really am Has only left me more alone [Chorus] I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why its so hard to say I'm not okay [Verse 2] I wish I had a scar, had a bruise on the surface Any kind of proof That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse My life's invisible abuse I'm either judged or have to hide The only symptom you can see Is I don't wanna be alive [Chorus] I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why its so hard to say [Pre-Chorus 2] I'll never have the words I can't explain this hell But what if it kills me If I keep it to myself To myself [Chorus] I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm never safe It's not a phase If I finally break Would you still stay [Outro] Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud