Eulogy for the 2 of Me

My faith has been shaken Everything that I love has been taken And the love in my eyes is a fear that now lies deep inside and my souls been forsaken My heart is an enemy racing As I wait and I pace in the station Dear god please take me away from this life or this day or this always in pain shit But he never responded, nah Not now or the end So I'll never belong and the demon I carry will always be my only friend Till all of me cannot defend I never do this for the trend I'll probably fly off and hide before I end up taking my life out of sight In the night No, I'm not alright You know you toyed inside my mind I can feel my personality splitting One side all wall-eyed The other the devil maniacally grinning Baptized in hate like I was made for unjustifiable sinning Capsized and irate enough to tear you apart where you're sitting It's only fitting If I had known right from the beginning That I would be giving and giving but never fulfilling For killing us or was it you the unwilling For giving up all of the love I'm instilling Or mopping up all of the blood I've been spilling Reliving my wrongs but never forgiving Cunt(I hate myself) I fucking love you, But I hate you You're the best at putting me in an irate mood And anxiety is quietly rebuilding up inside of me Suppressed by xannys, rye, and weed I'm tired please just let me sleep I close my eyes accept the fate of deaths untrue embrace But even in death all I can see is your mother fucking face And then I wake My heart it howls and it aches And tears run down my face As my self esteem deflates Wondering how you could just negate All the love was it just fake? Well f******u too bitch, cause I'm about to break Soul mates? What about we? You've created a violent me Now get to sleeping with the fishes at the bottom of the sea --- Eulogy for the 2 of Me - CoaastGxd