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I spent my 19th birthday in the hospital
With my brother and my mum
And I know it sounds dumb but I felt like I lost it all
The pain's compulsory, sufferin''s optional
Takeshi's Castle, my life's got obstacles
I'm still dealin' with a whole load of stress
I seen my older brother so close to the edge
And that there put a hole in my chest
And then they tell you home's where the heart is
But I got a hole where my heart is
Because I let a ho where my heart is
Never again
I had to tell her that we're better as friends
I never messaged again
Every message I send, ends up in a group chat
'Cause girls go and tell all their friends
That's one of many reasons why I ain't sendin' DMs
Look, I'm gonna keep this cake
And I'm gonna eat this cake
That's why I'm livin' three lives, I'm in GTA
I'm in Los Angeles drivin' a Mercedes
And it's funny because honestly I didn't think I'd see LA
Surprise birthday party I didn't see this cake, comin'
I need this money like its EMA
You gotta separate the rats from the G's
If you can't handle cheese
How the hell you gonna be a great?
I need a blazin' inferno for my enemies
Behind my back I know that everybody sends for me
And I'd respond but I don't even have the time
I mean, askin' Avelino couldn't help me find the energy
I don't think my ends want the best for me
That's why the question me, fake G checkin' me
Fuck the road but if anybody's testin' me
It's one step away like a 5-a-side penalty
Every Santander Nationwide remembers me
Right pocket full of cards, I'm a referee
Ain't it funny how this money that I'm gettin'
Came from fuckin' PA's like I'm sleepin' with a secretary
Secondly, your girlfriend's obsessed with me
But that's a story for another day
And this is why love is fucked
'Cause you went and put your trust in her
And then she sent me nudes
I said "Nuh-uh-uh, cover up"
I aired it, certain girls I can't respect
We're all nothin' to someone, and that you can't forget
So just remember when a girl's playin' hard to get
There's probably another person that she's tryin' hard to get
And there's probably a girl in your phone right now that you hardly text
That's lookin' for love
But everybody wants what they can't touch, so
If you, touch my money you can see what I'm about
You can ask your little sister I will be inside your house
Eatin' from your fridge, feet up on your couch
Tell your little brother
"Butter me a sandwich, spread in evenly amounts"
You think I'm playin' any games?
Why do you think I talk about cars, women and chains
On half of the songs I make, materialistic aims
Make me feel a way when I want it
When I got it, it don't ever feel the same
We got different types of problems
I'm gettin' corporate tax on this cash that I'm makin'
And at the same time I need to vanquish my pagans
If you think it's dead you're mistaken
I'm hot headed and dangerous
And still livin' in this matrix
All I wanna do is make my loved ones proud
In this year alone we made three hundred thousand
But my mum won't smile because her son's on trial
We got different types of problems
What do you know about livin' in a shadow
Where every single thing that you can do is bein' tainted
'Cause your brother's in the station and he's ill to the marrow?
Twelve or thirteen when I turned into an adult
All them kids my age were goin' TeenFest
When I was gettin' searched by a golden retriever
In a Cat. A prison while I'm standin' on an arrow
We used to have cards and now we're playin' with swords
My G went from Blackjack to a black Jack Sparrow
I know so many man who got a case on their head
That would kill to come home but their chances are narrow
In this world that we live in nobody listens
We do have thoughts but nobody's thinkin'
And I get it 'cause none of us are tyna play the victim
Any disrespect then retaliation, instant
I know a lot of man have been dodgin' karma
And they think it's all laughter 'til the bitch comes to kiss them
You know the difference between life and death
Is one bad decision, three or four inches
So many man my age have got P.T.s.d
And I don't think that it's hit them
If you envision, the way that we're livin'
The things that we had seen, situations that we'd been in
You would understand why I don't wanna talk about my life
In every song I've ever written
I really wanna help
But it's out of my control and jurisdiction
'Cause a lot of road yutes have got a sickness, mentally
Like, look
My mummy always used to tell me this
"David, listen when your older's speakin'"
I know man that listened to their olders speakin'
And now they're all life'd off and they don't know the reason
In a weird way summer is the coldest season
You'll get killed at a party for the smallest reason
One day you're chillin' in secondary
Next day your right hand's a memory
So when I say that I'm alone, do you know the feelin'?
When I say the game's over, do you know the meanin'?
I mean that I don't have the time for this
I need a girl but same time there's no time for them
I got people inside and I don't write to them
It's like I don't feel pain no more
I can't do journeys on the train no more
Can't shed a tear writin' on a page no more
I don't wanna play games no more
I don't want my friends on a case no more
And trust me, I don't want a war on the ends
But it's like you wanna start it so say no more
I'm too big for this nonsense, I don't need problems
Meetings, one-point-five milli' ain't an option
I don't need a deal or an option
In my own neighborhood
Me, Jack, Benny in the office
I don't need excel, Sony, drama
Our team's faster, street Sankara
I got a lot of love for everyone that checks for me
And a lot of love for certain girls s*xually
Textin' me, sayin' that she slept on me
And definitely wishes that she slept with me
Look
On another note I wanna say thanks to Carl
One of my closest from young and we're still at it now
I remember when we learnt to play piano
Just to make each other jealous
Who'd've thought that we would practice now?
Your talent's been standin' out
Be proud of your dream, you should stand and shout
I remember last year you never had a clue
And this year you went and did "Attitude"
Speakin' of attitude
It's only right I say sorry for my attitude
And I ain't never mad at you
Tyrell, Manon, Frasier especially
I got a lot of things I'm dealin' with mentally
I feel down a lot and I ain't got the energy
I need all of your help to get the best from me
There's way too much to do, I ain't gettin' sleep
The last time I got a rest they arrested me
Tell me a treatment for a video I didn't make myself from scratch
Every lyric, every melody
Every fuckin' beat
Every little detail in the artwork and video
Everything is me
A wonderful team and a God that I serve
My friends and my mum, my brothers and my girl
I don't want short-term success or a banger
Man are signin' to a sentence, gettin' lost in the words
And it's fine if you sign, man, it's each to their own
But these clones need to know that I'm different from the world
Don't compare me to them, they couldn't beat me at my worst
It don't matter if I'm rappin' or I'm singin' on the verse
Look
People don't get that I'm serious
I don't wanna play games no more
And I don't wanna talk to these girls no more
I can't fuck a girl that's in it for the fame no more
And man can't talk on my name no more
I give it five or ten minutes 'til your main ting talks
She's tellin' me that they don't talk no more
But I'm pretty sure that his wifey knows more
No more, no, I don't wanna play no more
No talks if it isn't money made no more
No more, no, I don't wanna play no more
I don't wanna play no games no more
And I don't wanna see my girl no more
'Cause I don't really wanna see her hurt no more
My mum tellin' me that she's gotta stop workin'
And I'm tellin' mummy you ain't gotta work no more
No more, mummy you ain't gotta hurt no more
You ain't gotta cry in your shirt no more
Mummy you ain't gotta wake up for work in the freezin' cold
In the middle of the night for a check no more
Mummy you ain't gotta cry no more
You ain't gotta stress in the night no more
And I ain't gotta say no more
We ain't playin' games no more
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My 19th Birthday - Dave
