I Hope I’m Wrong

I hope I'm wrong I hope you're up there after all I keep your diamond ring On my necklace I don't keep much close to my chest Poured a little bourbon out for you Got scolded on the porch For wasting booze Said it was something kids my age do Dan got up, poured some too Choked up riding in the backseat Dad at the wheel staying Tough, if you ask me He's always at his best when the Blade's right up against his neck When the shit goes wrong Man comes correct It gets no better than the way you went Money in the bank, sons Around your bed I know I should feel lucky But I'm just feeling spent Last thing you said Was you'd be Watching out for me and We both know that I don't believe that To be true String of beads to me Rosary to you We were young in different Circumstances Had the same set of questions All different answers And if we could've traded places Maybe we'd exchange whole lives Maybe you'd be here in Lights and tears And I'd have been the bride Raising kids with my Hair swept up and my goals Pushed to the side Making do singing lullabies I hope I'm wrong I hope you're up there after all I keep your diamond ring On my necklace I don't keep much close to my chest Poured a little bourbon out for you Got scolded on the porch For wasting booze Said it was something kids my age do Dan got up, poured some too I hope I'm wrong I hope I'm wrong I hope I'm wrong --- I Hope I’m Wrong - Dessa