Not Gonna Cry

I know it's not supposed to be easy Pouring out the bottled up feelings But I didn't think it would be this hard Walking to school with a broken heart And the jacket 'round my waist feels stupid I don't know why the hell we do this Saying I'm sorry like I'm the one Who's picking us apart for fun Why am I feeling like this? Why am I feeling like shit? Why am I all in pieces? I don't even need this, oh oh Why am I on the bedroom floor? With paranoia and painkillers Washing away all these feelings But I know, I know, I know I'm not gonna cry for you Choking all these thoughts I'm thinking You're a cigarette and I'm quitting I know, I know, I know I'm not gonna cry for you I'm not gonna cry for you You smell of cigarettes and perfume No one fucks me up like you do And maybe you thought I would play along I'd rather be dancing on my own Do you really think that I'm stupid? Of course I heard all the rumors But all of the grenades you threw They just made me bulletproof I'm done with feeling like this Done with feeling like shit Done with being in pieces I don't even need this, oh oh I'm done with laying on the floor With paranoia and painkillers Washing away all these feelings But I know, I know, I know I'm not gonna cry for you Choking all these thoughts I'm thinking You're a cigarette and I'm quitting But I know, I know, I know I'm not gonna cry for you I'm not gonna cry for you I'm not gonna cry for you I'm not gonna cry for you