Selfish

I thought that I'd be fine maybe get to know myself but it's hard when the lights all turn off I feel like I'm living hell maybe I just need time think that I read somewhere that shit helps but it's hard when the lights all turn off and I've run out of my pills But, how are you doing? How's your mother? I've been worried about her and are your panic attacks getting easier or harder? feels like I'm pulling teeth out, the silence.. no conversation. been speaking to myself, I think she thinks I'm going crazy Did you get the job you want? you always said you hate your boss and I know it's selfish but I hate that you're smiling when I'm not I know it's selfish, but I can't help it.