Redemption

I met him at the state store he was trying to holla I ain't care he was old enough to be my father I knew his wife I went to school with his daughter He was the boss that I knew went harder Gave me my first taste but I had to take it farther I mean I had to go harder I started calling up his crib just to hit him And I ain't even care I ask his wife if she was with him Came home late and he got into a fight, And he called me that night He said he never want to see me on the block I said I don't need you but I need that rock I couldn't take it so I had to go see him Stole my mama car and drove around all evening And when I found him I thought that he would lace me I ain't got no money but you know I'll let you taste me He pulled his gun out and told me I was stupid I started crying prayed to God he wouldn't do it [Chorus] Oh please, Lord I plead, just save me (if you're really there) Here's a sinner's prayer This is my redemption song I met this chick in Philly who said she like to sing I ain't mean it but I said that it was good she had a dream My daddy used to beat my mama Saw it everyday So when I got wit' her, I did the same thang He always used to say you gotta keep a bitch tamed So I never let her sing And every chance I got I told her if she ever left me I'd kill her that's is how I made her respect me Forget me, never, made her believe it don't get no better I told her it was crazy out there She said she don't care but she can't stay here The last time I hit her she went into the kitchen I ain't pay her no mind or even know that she was missing She came out bleeding with her eyes all blacked I looked and saw she had something behind her back She pulled the gun out and told me I was stupid Dropped to my knees and prayed to God she wouldn't do it [Chorus] I really need to know if you are there If you could just, just heal a sinner's prayer You could remake me Oh just save me I promise if you get me through this I'll change I need to be set free [Chorus] Forgive me Father, I know I've done wrong but I have nowhere else to turn So hear me --- Redemption - Jazmine Sullivan