By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instincts blindly? Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams And give into sad thoughts that are maddening? Do I sit here and try to stand it? Or do I try to catch them red-handed? Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin I make the right moves but I'm lost within I put on my daily façade but then I just end up getting hurt again By myself (myself) I ask why, but in my mind I find I can't rely on myself (myself) I ask why, but in my mind I find I can't rely on myself I can't hold on To what I want when I'm stretched so thin It's all too much to take in I can't hold on To end things watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in If I turn my back I'm defenseless And to go blindly seems senseless If I hide my pride and let it all go on Then they'll take from me 'til everything is gone If I let them go I'll be outdone But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer By myself (myself) I ask why, but in my mind I find I can't rely on myself (myself) I ask why, but in my mind I find I can't rely on myself I can't hold on To what I want when I'm stretched so thin It's all too much to take in I can't hold on To end things watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in How do you think I've lost so much I'm so afraid I'm out of touch How do you expect I will know what to do When all I know Is what you tell me to Don't you I can't tell you how to make it No matter what I do How hard I I can't seem to convince myself I'm stuck on the outside Don't you I can't tell you how to make it No matter what I do How hard I I can't seem to convince myself I'm stuck on the outside I can't hold on (To what I want when I'm stretched so thin) It's all too much to take in I can't hold on (To anything watching everything spin) Without some failure sinking I can't hold on (To what I want when I'm stretched so thin) It's all too much to take in I can't hold on (To anything watching everything spin) Without some failure sinking