Can't Lose My Joy

Watching you suffer, is the hardest thing that I’ve ever faced But I can’t lose hope And I can't lose faith In my heart there’s a space just for you that can't be replaced So I won't lose hope And I won't lose faith I can't lose my Joy Baby can you come over here please, take a look a look at this and see what you see? She had a little lump poking under her shoulder? I noticed before but it look like it’s growing So, We go to the doctor’s office Fingers crossed, it’s probably nothin’ He lowered his voice slowly & told us Cancer is the diagnosis Whoa, hold up Cancer? In her prime? At 29? Wait a minute, that can’t be right We were instantly terrified Her face turned white like a pantomime I was momentarily paralyzed Doctor said it like it wasn’t nothing But we hearin’ this for the very first time He goes OK people, 4 weeks ‘til she goes for chemo I held her close, I felt her feet go Tears flowed, streaking down those cheekbones, she goes: Baby what are we gonna do? At this point we both crying I said, I can tell you what ain’t gonna happen Ain’t nobody dying I told her, Babe you a soldier We'll turn over every stone & boulder But in my heart of hearts I’m fallin apart but I can’t show her ‘Cause if I seem defeated she’ll feel weak and the beast will just keep feeding God please, she can’t leave me This is me I’m pleading Watching you suffer, is the hardest thing that I’ve ever faced But I can’t lose hope And I can't lose faith In my heart there’s a space just for you that can't be replaced So I won't lose hope And I won't lose faith I can't lose my Joy 2 more tumors formed Under her jawbone Another one in her abdomen One the size of a golf ball The other the size of a tangerine But we blue collar artists Gotta keep tourin’ to pay the mortgage Unfortunately Life don’t give you intermission during performance Every single night she singin’ like her life depended on it It was like her soul was screaming Chasing that demon out of her body Our songs hit #1 For 6 weeks at radio stations But it’s bittersweet ‘cause the chemo failed Next it’s radiation I’m coming all outta pocket For the deposits & the deductibles We runnin out of all options I’m trying my hardest to keep her comfortable I’m arguing with the doctors In the parking lot of the hospital ‘Cause we use alternative medicine We have the right to anything possible, Days away from treatment We at stage 4, ain’t no stage 5 Doctors are all speechless With amazement in his face & eyes He says I ain’t never seen this with any other patient of mine The cancer is disappearing... It’s fading... Praise God Watching you suffer, is the hardest thing that I’ve ever faced But I can’t lose hope And I can't lose faith In my heart there’s a space just for you that can't be replaced So I won't lose hope And I won't lose faith I can't lose my Joy Miracles can happen if you have a spiritual passion Plus support from people that love you & won’t let you leave this planet Baby, look at how much we’ve accomplished And just look at how much we’ve grown Doctor said we’d never have kids Now our son is 8 yrs old I know it’s a been a minute since you let me write a song for you It took a while to finish, to relive it was so hard for you For all you’ve given me, I wrote the greatest of them all for you Watching you suffer, is the hardest thing that I’ve ever faced But I can’t lose hope And I can't lose faith In my heart there’s a space just for you that can't be replaced So I won't lose hope And I won't lose faith I can't lose my Joy --- Can't Lose My Joy - Lyrics Born