Demons

I've been falling asleep with all of my demons They've been haunting my dreams and I can't think straight cause they won't stop screaming I've been falling asleep with all of my demons They keep talking to me but I can't tell em shit cause they can't keep a secret I've been falling asleep with all of my demons They've been haunting my dreams and I can't think straight cause they won't stop screaming I've been falling asleep with all of my demons They keep talking to me but I can't tell em shit cause they can't keep a secret What the fuck am I to do? What the fuck am I to do? What the fuck am I to do? What the fuck am I to do? When there's nothing left Cause I don't want to feel shit Someone must've hit a kill switch They don't ask about the problems that I deal with Fuck all of this money You can have it I don't feel rich I keep having these flashbacks I hate em They remind me of my problems I can't stand to face em I know it's probably my last chance to change em But even if I do it my past can't erase it They recognize me cause they see me on the internet They think I owe em something I can't deal with all the disrespect Sick to my stomach When I feel it I just disconnect My demons tend to get the best Tell me when I get depressed I've been stabbed in the back with a chainsaw But who am I to blame y'all? I'm smokin till the pains gone You see me smiling on the surface trying to stay strong Acting like I'm happy starts to feel like it's my day job But just as long as there's a purpose to it all I'll keep touring, working hard, writing verses to these songs Far from perfect, every person has their flaws And mine is I'm an addict still searching for a cause I know they judge me for mistakes that I've made Since I've gained all this fame Shit just ain't been the same I came in the game to pave a lane for my name And it's painful to say it puts restraints on my brain I know its worth it cause I get to tell my story I'm at a point where the industry can't ignore me I never had the mainstream media to endorse me I did this all by being myself and y'all are corny So every kid thats listening to this song I hope you find a message I've written within it all If no one's ever there to help pick you up when you fall I promise you're not alone Play this shit and just hit the wall, cause I've been falling asleep with all of my demons They've been haunting my dreams and I can't think straight cause they won't stop screaming I've been falling asleep with all of my demons They keep talking to me but I can't tell em shit cause they can't keep a secret I've been falling asleep with all of my demons They've been haunting my dreams and I can't think straight cause they wont stop screaming I've been falling asleep with all of my demons They keep talking to me but I can't tell em shit cause they can't keep a secret I've been falling asleep with all of my demons They've been haunting my dreams and I can't think straight cause they wont stop screaming I've been falling asleep with all of my demons They keep talking to me but I can't tell em shit cause they can't keep a secret I know you're listening for something to relate to I know the feeling like the whole world hates you I know you wishin you could finally have a break through You thought it was a phase so you pretend you're in a great mood I know it hurts to see reflections of yourself Cause the person that you see is not like everybody else So you try and you try but it never seems to help So you questioning your worth cause you're so fed up with the guilt But you're not the only one who's going through regret You're not the only one that no one seems to get You're not the only one who's so close to the edge And if you slip it's over for you so you cope with it instead I can promise you that nobody is perfect And you overthink the little shit you always so concerned with So you lock yourself inside every night and close the curtains And you're screaming out loud but its like no one even heard it I know problems keep piling up right in front of you So much anxiety inside you don't know what to do Been lied to so much you don't think you even want the truth Fuck it all You grew to be used to it It aint nothing new I've been there too Just hold tight A lot of substance abuse and long nights But next time I see all my demons, it's on site Next time I see all my demons, it's on site yeah I've been falling asleep with all of my demons They've been haunting my dreams and I can't think straight cause they won't stop screaming I've been falling asleep with all of my demons They keep talking to me but I can't tell em shit cause they can't keep a secret What the fuck am I to do? What the fuck am I to do? What the fuck am I to do? What the fuck am I to do? What the fuck am I to do? What the fuck am I to do? What the fuck am I to do? What the fuck am I to do? When there's nothing left --- Demons - Merkules