Brother to Brother

Not a familiar face in years Guess they forgot to remember me And why is granny the only one answers Auntie died, momma sick and she got cancer My best friend sleeping with my B.M My old block dying 'cause they beefing I cry until the sunrise Praying for these bars to break Dear little bruh I'm writing to see if you got my last letter And if you did honestly this my last letter I get the point, I see you to busy and don't wanna be bothered It's just just weird how we share the same mother and father But yet you treat me like a stranger, instead of your brother How could you hate me so much, when you know that I love ya I didn't choose this life bruh, I was forced in it Married to the game and couldn't get a divorce in it No prenup with me it was all or nothin' I did all the hustlin' I was tired of strugglin' I got addicted to that cash money, quick, quick, cash money Dad was on dope , he ain't have bus pass money Moms was in the streets hoein' for gas money I was on the corner thuggin', chasin' that fast money Whatchu wanted me to do? I never had intentions little bruh on leaving you The streets was the only thing there that would feed me dude My life was hard bruh, it wasn't easy dude I ain't had that type of life that you see on T.V. dude I just wasn't ready for the streets when they freed me dude I was chasin' my past hangin' 'round with sleazy dudes I was doing things the normal man wouldn't even do I just want you to come and see me dude I just want you to come and see me dude Not a familiar face in years Guess they forgot to remember me And why is granny the only one answers Auntie died, momma sick and she got cancer My best friend sleeping with my B.M My old block dying 'cause they beefing I cry until the sunrise Praying for these bars to break Everyday this what I see when I awake in this cell I spend twenty-three hours of the day in this cell Gotta sleep, gotta shit, gotta pray in this cell Gotta eat, gotta piss, gotta lay in a cell All night, all morning, all day in this cell Prison on lock down, gotta stay in this cell Think about my old bitch, masturbate in this cell Couple books help my mind elevate in this cell So much [?] No love at all, man I'm hatin' this cell Can't go no where, man gotta wait in this cell Contemplated suicide, man by a shank in this cell Drag queens that you probably never think was a male Fags, punks, snitches, man be racin' to tell Undercover homos be chasin' the tail Grown men cryin', getting raped in they cell Killers on the streets, man [?] Cellie been dead a week, no escapin' the smell No letters in 5 years, lost faith in the mail It's only so much you can take 'fore you yell It's only so much you can take as a male It's only so much you can take in this hell Not a familiar face in years Guess they forgot to remember me And why is granny the only one answers Auntie died, momma sick and she got cancer My best friend sleeping with my B.M My old block dying 'cause they beefing I cry until the sunrise Praying for these bars to break Dear big bruh Yeah I got all your letters I responded several times, just didn't have the courage to send them And nah I don't treat you man like you a stranger But I can't lie its hard to bottle up all this anger When you first came home, we had plans to change the game up When you got out it's like damn you changed up I was thinking we can be like Baby and Slim Me and you, we can take over the game and get this win All I needed man was your patience for you to believe But you was more interested in the streets then believin' in me So why you wonder why I'm mad and why I don't reach back You let me down so many times doin' all that Hurt my heart to find out, man that you were smoking on crack 'Cause I was like nah man, my brother wouldn't do that But you did bro, looked up to you since a kid bro Don't matter whatever it is you still is my big bro But them drugs had your mind gone And that plus blind jealousy had you looking at me like I'm wrong Decisions you was making in the streets wasn't wise ones And the things that you said could've jeopardized lives bruh You was only worried about yours wasn't worried about mine bruh But you being locked up who you think [?] Your niece getting old, she about to turn 9 bruh Daddy had AIDS, I sat and watched him die bruh Momma had cancer, I sat and watched her die bruh Twelve years I waited for you, a lot of time bruh For you to get out and go back and do time bruh That's why I ain't fucking with you I ain't wasting my time bruh But I love you man, I really do And as I get older I feel sorry for you But you weren't worried about niggas tryna kill me What will be, will be, when it will be This is only how I feel, I just hope you feel me This is only how I feel, I just hope you feel me --- Brother To Brother - Mistah F.A.B.