Doubting Thomas

What will be left when I've drawn my last breath Besides the folks I've met and the folks who know me Will I discover a soul saving love or Just the dirt above and below me? I'm a doubting Thomas I took a promise I do not feel safe O' me of little faith Sometimes I pray for a slap in the face Then I beg to be spared cause I'm a coward If there's a master of death I bet he's holding his breath Cause I show the blind and tell the deaf About his power I'm a doubting Thomas I can't keep my promises Cause I don't know what's safe O' me of little faith Can I be used to help others find truth When I'm scared that I'll find proof that it's a lie Can I be led down a trail dropping bread crumbs To prove I'm not ready to die Please give me time to decipher the signs Please forgive me for time that I've wasted I'm a doubting Thomas I'll take your promise Though I know nothing's safe O' me of little faith O' me of little faith