Keeping Tabs

Lose it You left without saying goodbye (fuck, fuck, fuck) Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry, don't cry I ball a fist and die inside I wish I didn't, but regrettably, I entirely understand why you did it Take one step forward and two jumps back One hand on the gate of this cul-de-sac Some cursed part of me wants to be cornered Right into it even if we crack You left early and you arrived too late Just right in time to be a huge mistake So I wish you well and I wish you far away This was never real, I'll say it 'til I believe it I wish I never Met you, you are the Worst thing that I'm still Keeping tabs on for some stupid reason You were just being Nice, now I fully believe you're out There somewhere also Keeping tabs on how I might be feeling For some stupid reason I keep on believing You care and you're reeling too I don't even know you Drowning in my own Sad, imagined fantasy of who you could be The reality is you Unironically love personality tests All of the data's weak, half-amusing at best But it could never work 'cause I'm an Enneatype 4 Aquarius You say the wrong thing every time you talk The red flags wave, the alarms sound off I'm so glad our paths didn't cross I'm so glad, I'll say it 'til I believe it I wish I never Met you, you are the Worst thing that I'm still Keeping tabs on for some stupid reason You're the same with everyone I'm not special, no You're not out there just Keeping tabs on how I might be feeling That's all just imagined I keep on believing You care and you miss me too I need to get over you Oh, oh I need to get over you --- Keeping Tabs - NIKI