Self-Destruct

Promise me nothing that you said was a hyperbole All the shit you said about loving me everyday for 18 months just say it's true I'm sorry, it's just another product of anxiety Bringing me to moments where I can't sleep, I lie awake and think about the worst things possible I know that I want to be by your side But it's so hard when we're not in the same state of mind Tear down the walls that you've built up inside Do you know what I'm about to tell you? I miss all the days that we would spend eating candy watching TV in my bed Back when I was happy, I was cool, wasn't tortured by this thing inside my head I felt there was purpose in my life when I could be who I wanted all the time Now I sit in silence wishing that I could hear you say my name Once more for the books, just one time, keep it locked up in the back part of my mind Maybe I wouldn't feel what I used to feel when I stand deep in the oceans of your eyes These days I'm afraid of everything, I'm afraid that everything may never change So I lay down on the floor and think about you and how you say my name How you say my name