Oh GOD

I look at you and I know how I felt All those summers ago, then I swore not to tell I'm swallowed up whole by this catholic guilt oh GOD If I always do what I am told I'll be bitter at fifty years old I wasted my youth I wasted my time I wasted my worry on the little things If you always just laugh it off I won't be opening up We kissed on the bed It messed with my head Does that mean nothing to you? I look at you and I know how I felt all those summers ago, then I swore not to tell I'm swallowed up whole by this catholic guilt I don't want to think about it I don't want to think about it I don't want to think about it I don't want to think about it I'm just trying to shake off the shame When I'm wearing nothing but blame Not easy cause when I close my eyes I just think of touching you This can't be easy on his side Laying there motionless each night A head full of heat, skin, sweat, sin Tangled up feet and now clutching at sheets thinking I look at her and I know how I felt All those summers ago then I swore not to tell I'm swallowed up by this catholic guilt oh GOD I don't want to think about it I don't want to think about it I don't want to think about it I don't want to think about it (I can't control it) I don't want to think about it