Not Enough

I have chased this flame And been burned a thousand times (Left with smoke in my lungs) And I can't change my ways No matter how I try I'm not enough Between my heart and my head There lies a great divide In which my future's dead But now my past won't die My higher power said Love is where you left it Back in the home Where I should've left my wrists slit I'm always left behind Bipolar state of mind I bloom into the high Til all these memories collide Dead to rights I've got the ache in spades I showed you all of my colors In every single fucking shade yeah And I have chased this flame And been burned a thousand times (Left with smoke in my lungs) And I can't change my ways No matter how I try No I'm not enough I was a sensational fiend Living a breakable dream I was talking to God And testing my faith I stoke the flame To try and find some grace My higher power said Love is where you left it Back in the home Where I should've left my wrists slit I'm always left behind Bipolar state of mind I bloom into the high Til all these memories collide And I have chased this flame And been burned a thousand times (Left with smoke in my lungs) And I can't change my ways No matter how I try No I'm not enough So forget me when I'm gone Cuz all that ever mattered Were these fucking songs I dance the thin line Between chaos and kindness What scum I was Hateful and mindless I have chased this flame And been burned a thousand times (Left with smoke in my lungs) And I can't change my ways No matter how I tried (No matter how I tried) And if there's anything that I have learned (I'm not enough) I am the one Who loves to be burned (I'm not enough) I fetishsize Self sabotage (Not enough) Shut your eyes Wait for applause And I have chased this flame And been burned a thousand times (Left with smoke in my lungs) And I can't change my ways No matter how I try No I'm not enough --- Not Enough - Outline In Color