Uno

Yeah, I don't know where to start How do you admit that you're falling apart? I mean, how will I admit that I'm falling apart? My mother's gonna worry but I'm fine in my heart I've lived the words that I've said And I live with a voice that tends to tell me that I'm shit in my head And well, maybe I should fuck it and be happy instead I should just say, "Fuck it," and be happy instead, right? Right 'Cause there's a lot of people tryna tell me how to deal with myself But I'm not gonna listen if you mention my health I don't care, don't tell me and don't text me 'Cause that kind of shit upsets me, just kind of affects me And it's bringing me down, and I'm not gonna lie These days, I prefer to just not be outside And these days, I just end up spendin' all of my time With my girlfriend, but to be honest, I think that's alright 'Cause time keeps rollin' and I'm just makin' songs I'm doing my best Still find myself stressed And I'm no longer sure where I belong I'm starting to rust Don't know who to trust (Don't trust anyone, not even me) Some people concentrate on style too much But I think I just force myself to smile too much And that should soon end for the best I wanna live my life with no stress Love life and feel blessed, like It's kind of funny on the inside I'm tryna be a man, but really I'm just a little child, shit And that's pretty much it Yeah that's pretty much it (Is there anything else?) Oh yeah My jaw hurts a lot because I grind it with stress (mhm?) I was an idiot recently and lost a lot of my friends (naw) Nothing brings me joy and nothing makes me smile Being at school makes me aware of how I haven't been myself in awhile (oh) And I wonder what it was like to be eleven? Wonder if there's such a thing as life after death, such a thing as heaven? (Why?) And every now and then I think about the fact that I'd become a legend if I died at 27