I Used To Say I Love You

I used to say I love you; It wasn't really true. I wanted to believe it, And now I almost do. I used to say I love you; I said it as a threat, Or maybe as a promise To see what I could get. But my heart doesn't break anymore. No, my heart doesn't ache anymore, 'Cause it just couldn't take any more, And I've lost my illusions about you now. I used to say I love you; It wasn't what I meant. What I really meant was: Come on in my tent. But you were reluctant Although I was so hot. Now I understand it, But back then I did not. But my heart doesn't wear anymore. No, my heart doesn't care anymore, 'Cause my heart isn't there anymore, And I've lost my illusions about you now. And now if I should see you Or call you on the phone, I wonder who's that person I could never call my own. Although I kind of like you, I'll never understand Why I got so excited Each time that we held hands. 'Cause my heart doesn't feel anymore. No, my heart doesn't wheel anymore, 'Cause it just isn't real anymore, And I've lost my illusions about you now. --- I Used to Say I Love You - Robyn Hitchcock