Ceremonies

So I'm Getting to know me Really slowly Soon who I am right now Will be the old me I'll ask Me from the future How we doing Do you Wish you were me Should I wish I was you Now that I envy All of my past selves Who had their health 'Cause now I'm Constantly scared And needing repairs And no matter What I achieve I get thoughts of leaving There Trapped down in my youth I wish I was you With our age old ceremonies That we made up Now such dear memories From when we stayed up Late watched the sun From the street As we made up all those Lives that we surely would lead But now our lives lead us So I'll turn life Into a habit But I'll have this Weight that People erase Or think that I'm faking Freedom Is in the short term As I have learned There's no real Sense of completion Only seasons Spring comes Tells me of summer And then under It's breath says Autumn's a promise To prolong this Stay as Whoever I will be That's the real me There Trapped down in my youth I wish I was you Still the hardest words That anyone has said I sometimes wish I just wouldn't have asked The final cut In a long series of stabs Look we're sorry kid But you'll never get your old life back You will never get your old life back You will never get your old life back Or your Age old ceremonies That we made up Now such dear memories From when we stayed up Late watched the sun from the street As we made up all those Lives that we surely would lead With our Age old ceremonies That we made up Now such dear memories From when we stayed up Late watched the sun from the street As we made up all those Lives that we surely would lead But now our lives lead us But now our lives lead us But now our lives lead us