Never Be Alright

Maybe I can be so sad when I'm not Life can be lonely and I'm stuck up in these thoughts Everything I'm wanting I can have it at the top But I'm at the bottom, I'm surrounded by these rocks If I had love would I still feel this lonely? I was by myself and nobody had to show me Never gave a fuck, nobody tried to know me Handing out these guns but nobody tried blow me I don't wanna be here, I just wanna go Wanna leave my family, everybody that I know Suicidal thoughts, will they miss me when I go? Tryna get high, I been riding all the lows Finally getting sober and it bringing back the pain Sunny for a minute now it's cloudy with the rain Shit falling down and it bringing back mistakes Future looking blurry, I don't see it in my fate (in my fate, in my fate) Why, oh why? I don't wanna be here, I just wanna die Always been sad and I'll never be alright Why, oh why? I don't wanna be here, I just wanna die Always been sad and I'll never be alright Please come and save me, I really need saving These are not just lyrics, I'm really not playing This life that I'm living, I feel like I'm faking If I can't be real then it's time for the taking Come take my life and my soul When I'm not even old I been searching for a heart 'cause my heart is so cold Say I don't listen, not doing I'm told Don't fit the system I'll never be gold If I hit escape would I just fall and go to hell? Moses say I would but who is he to go and tell? Wanna judge me now but not gon' hear me when I yell I been crying out, steady asking for some help Nobody wanna talk, nobody picking up the vibes Smile on my face but they can't tell that it's a lie Cover for the sorrow that I'm feeling deep inside Hit 'em with the shock when they hear I wanna die Why, oh why? I don't wanna be, here I just wanna die Always been sad and I'll never be alright Why, oh why? I don't wanna be here, I just wanna die Always been sad and I'll never be alright