Lately, I feel so alone
Don’t even know why I have a phone
Nobody hits me up and I’m stuck
Never had someone that I could call my- own
It’s lonely walking down this road
Fake friends that I didn’t have to know
The same ones that fucked me over
And whenever I need ‘em and I turn around
They’re just turn ghosts
I feel I’m at an all-time low
I am depressed and it hurts me to know
My ex is happy and I can’t seem to cope
She’s ignoring every text message I wrote
My anxiety’s high, my medication’s low
I am so stressed and I hate being home
I sit it over, think everything alone
I wish I had somebody to hold, damn
I’m sick and tired of putting up a front
Like I’m happy, but really I am in a slump
I try to stay strong, screaming, “I don’t give a fuck”
But if anybody would give it, then I’m the one
I wanna put down my walls and open up
I hide behind this rapper I’ve become
Addicted to being accepted’s like a drug
No one’s here, I feel like I’m ready to plunge
I remember, you said my music was wack
Teachers persuading me to try to give up my act
They said- the image and the drive is what I lack
Made me think maybe I could never be apart of rap
Well I ignored that, I said fuck it and snapped
Over twenty million plays, where are my haters at?
I didn’t need a label to give me a chance
The day I sell out an arena, I feel like I’m the man
Buzzin' hard, but to find nothing
Never found someone who really loves me
People coming around now 'cause I’m gettin' money
A few plays later, now they all see something
The same guy that is from the start
The same guy my ex left with a broken heart
The same guy who turned music into his art
The same seven-year-old who dreamt of being a star
I’m twenty-two, and I won’t let myself down
I stood up right after I fell down
It’s hard to see Heaven when you know your Hell bound
I never really opened up and that’s until now
I hope that I never lose you
If I could choose one person, I would choose you
I hope you understand my pain
'Cause that’s something that we all gotta go- through
I hate being down this road
Been down it before
I feel like I need you more
I’m so alone
Once I was seven years old
My- future’s all I’d imagine
And now I’m here and I look back
I’m screaming dammit
This life I never planned it
No, I never planned it
