I sit alone in my bed i lay
I can't sit and justify my ways
I let depression pick apart of my brain
My minds a weapon and i'm in my aim
Alotta money sitting in my bank
Living in debt cuz the price i paid
I sit alone questioning my faith
Behind my phone just to hide my face
Cuz if i don't then i just might break
Don't really know what's measures i'll take
My heart corrodes and it can't be saved
I should of known, what was at stake
I'm turning cold cuz my life don't change
I wanna fold, but i just can't cave i gotta flight
Don't know how much left is in me
Why do my thoughts always turn against me
Why's it so hard, when my problems hit me
What if all along the problem, is me
Broken as hell there's no way to fix me
I feel like a misfit
I wish all of my burdens were lifted
I was blind to the lies i was given
Visit my mind and you'll find that it's twisted
I'm twisted, don't hate me
Still running but forget what i'm chasing
I'm burnt out i need matches to save me
It's turns out that i'm actually crazy
I find it crazy, how i never broke out of this cycle
I know what the issue is, i'm in denial
I should probably go to church and open an bible
I've been putting off god, i need him for survival
I admit i'm sinner but i believe in christ tho
Holding on to my hope, knowing that if i don't
Ima end up on the edge, i'm my biggest rival
Resent the pain i hold and plus on a side note I
Broke down yesterday still
I'm numb now i don't feel
Struggling i can't feel
No one's stepped in my field
Broken down after i build
Lotta fakes, can't find real
I need my glass re-filled
Dead inside can't find thrill I'm
Still, at the bottom, by myself
Stress been effecting my health
Pressures got my overwhelmed
I just checked in a hotel
I needa be alone, don't wanna be alone
I feel like i am in hell
I just check my phone, why do i have a phone
Ain't no one hitting my cell, yeah
It is just me like it always been
We could had love but you came and went
It's okay it's alright cuz we made amends
But still think about what we coulda been
But enough about that, let's get back to this
I want real, i don't care what your status is
If i spot out a fake, ima handle it
I don't care if you leave you'll be back again
Cuz you'll be back and i promise that
A bunch of a lames on IG hitting me for follow back
Hoping that i'm follow back, honestly i am off of that
This popularity contest is lame and i'm not apart that
Instead of getting a follow why don't you get to know me
Don't say you love me, display the action and show me
I set bar high I don't got no time for you phony's
Trying show me fake love that's why i feeling so lonely
I'm slowly hitting rock bottom but I'm tryna climb to peak
I cry myself to sleep the misery that it brings
Is making wanna leave and walk away from my dreams
Cuz it's no longer for-filling, I'm living my life on E, i need
Somebody to save me, talking to myself man i feel like i'm crazy
I'm sick of me and all my problems
You can't go lower when you hit rock bottom
Ooo, ooh, ooo, ooh, ooo, ooh
I can't get much lower then this (I can't get much lower)
Nah i can't get much lower then this (I can't get much lower)
Ooo-ooh
