Pretty Pathetic

You should have heard me sobbing As I drove home that night Got into bed and stayed there For days I just laid there Having been permanently changed But we won't get into that now Let's take it from the start You should have seen me smiling Like the world was mine She used to call me baby Softly, sometimes But if I dwell on those days too long I feel like my life is over And that's no good So let's move on To the part where I begin to sense Her distance I panic and hold on tighter But that makes it worse How am I supposed to take it When she said: "This is something I'm going through, It's got nothing to do with you" I had a special evening all planned out Desperately determined to reignite Some spark between us She had to feel something for me A love as strong as ours Doesn't just go away You can't just turn it off Unless she was lying all those times But I don't think so I really don't think so The way she used to look at me Made me a thousand feet high The meaning of the word cool Not the same geek Who fumbled through his words that night The ugliest night I said some pretty awkward things I got the feeling that she felt sorry for me I should have seen it was hopeless and left it alone But I had to go on embarrassing myself "I miss what we had I need you so badly, I miss what we had I need you so badly" I must have sounded pretty pathetic, I know That's why I don't blame her for what she said But listen to me rambling We don't know each other that well But you're so easy to talk to I feel like I can tell you almost anything I hope I haven't put you off I have a tendency to do that Why don't I just be quiet?