An Essay to You

my world fell apart it caught into flames and all i ever did was place in the games with your heart the devil grabbed me by the hand and asked me to dance i stood no chance it never made sense it’s all in my head and all i ever did was turn down all you said i’m sorry the darkness just took over me it took every memory i wept all day the monster underneath my skin has taken full control of me it’s much too strong with the pills upon my tongue and the taste of sweet relief i felt the weight of god collapse upon my body he said “go and take your life, i cant even look at you” he then took off his mask to reveal a polyon and i’m screaming till i throw up that i need you and i’m crying till i burn out of tears how can i be so stupid you’re everything i need i’m stuck in my room there’s nothing to see my mind freezes time to reflect on being me it’s so sad my feelings punch me in the face cuz i let down my sweetheart i’m knocked out cold i kick and i scream your body’s so warm you came to pick me up and i felt so alarmed i’m sorry an angel watches over me her lips press against my lips there’s still some hope but darling i am sorry that i’m just like the other guys i meant no harm i lay flat upon my sheets my head towards the ceiling my chest begins to ache and the tears roll down my face i scroll through all our pictures this pain is killing me it’s nothing compared to yours it’s tearing me apart and i’m screaming till i throw up that i need you and i’m crying till i burn out of tears how can i be so stupid you’re everything i need