You Weren't Meant to See That

I was in the other room Just laying on the carpet Sinking like a summer moon Slipping through a tar pit You weren't meant to see that You weren't meant to see that Of course there's joy in the mundane Like hauling down the highway But then I swerved into the other lane And flipped over the barricades You weren't meant to see that You weren't meant to see that I watched the windows shatter As if it ever mattered And for once in my life I see things for what they are And not through the lens of profit and achievement It's nothing when you need it One of those fortune cookie proclamations That I could never swallow You weren't meant to see that All the shit I should hold back 'Cause it's all in my head and I can see it through your swampy eyes That I won't always be the only one for you