Proper Dose

Highs and lows are how I flow My favorite mirror's there I wanna look at what I think I know But all I do is stare too long I defy the proper dose 'cause I'm alone and I don't care And though that grass is greener it just don't even compare At all, at all All this time I wanna give you back I feel opaque and absentee Am I just going through the motions Or is this how I'll be? Barely focused anymore The haze is all that I can see Red bottle, white cap Slime in my stomach slowly turning Staring at the grout in the tile Dry is my heave and my head is burning Think I'll be in here a while, I'm gone And my cousin's age is turning Growing into a man from a child I wanna watch him play, wanna see him score Wanna be around 'cause I need To make him smile some more Some more All this time I wanna give you back I feel opaque and absentee Am I just going through the motions Or is this how I'll be? Barely focused anymore The haze is all that I can see Red bottle, white cap Red bottle, white cap