This Life I Have

I hate my life I hate my friends I hate the way the notebook ends I hate my job I hate my car I hate the cute girls at the bar I hate my band I hate my songs I hate the kids that sing along But worst of all you made me hate the things i love Now I love these drugs That numb the pain I love the way your knuckles taste I love the noises in my head That tell me, “Nick, you should be dead.” But hey this life that I've got's real I'm reminded everyday That I will never ever ever ever ever ever ever be happy That's how it goes I'm just having a bad night Maybe, yeah maybe this could be alright So much to live for I could die I think this could be the start of a new life (oh is this your new boyfriend? oh sweet...) Now I hate myself I hate my clothes Hate that my facial hair won't grow I hate my brain And how it thinks I hate my narcissistic tendencies My lovely shade of giving up It takes so much to loosen up So I'll pop another pill and watch the world give up on me watch the world give up on me watch the world give up on me I don't deserve your attention I don't deserve it one bit I'm sorry if this song Or if this show ain't what you wanted You worked so many hours saving up so you could make it Til a website ripped you off and went and bought up all the tickets Now we're eye to eye While I self-examine My pretty mind, my convoluted, pure depression Your opinion it haunts me I just want you to want me I want my life I want it back I want the good times that we had So I'll just write When I feel down And hope the masses sing aloud I love these songs I love our fans I take back everything I said Yeah I'll enjoy This life I have