The Number You Have Dialed Is Not in Service

I'm fallin' apart You mighta thought I was playin' A part in the art I've created But most of the words reflect what's happened Or what is waitin' to start happenin' I keep on damagin' myself Tryna fill the void with all this water round my neck I'm 'bout to drip until I drown All these drugs up in my nose I taste the drip, that shit's so sour All these cars that I bought Either don't start or they got impounded Pursued the American dream The nightmare's what I doubted Catch a flight to London or I'll catch I flight to Lyon Show my face in public, show another one at home See my name on the marquee, letters fallin' down Litterin' a cold dark street somewhere downtown As soon as I reached cloud nine it started stormin' Heavy thunderstorms in every city that I'm tourin' Life ain't like a rap video, that's just a warnin' Hopin' to see the sun when I wake up in the mornin' All this misery, misery, misery, fuck Look at my history, no mystery Where I might end up, just shut up Don't wanna hear it, it's my decision May be my last wish so just please listen (not in service) So long, it's been torture bein' here So cold, gettin' high but now I cope with fear Same song and I'm sick of singin' it Let me move on, it's for my benefit But one come all to my downfall Bear witness to everything that I can't solve My therapist made me promise before I end it all That her phone would be the one I choose to call, cryin', askin' Is it really worth it? What's beneath the surface or behind the curtain? Really don't think I wanna take this any further Made one last attempt to figure out my purpose I called her phone, it said, "Not in service" When life gets hard (get's hard) Keep on marchin' on (keep on marchin' on) Even if the finish line is far Or you have to push the car (push the car) Keep on marchin' on (keep on marchin' on) When life gets hard (get's hard) Keep on marchin' on (keep on marchin' on) Even if the finish line is far Or you have to push the car (push the car) Keep on marchin' on (keep on marchin' on) --- The Number You Have Dialed Is Not in Service - $uicideBoy$