If I Ever Was a Child

I've never been alone Long enough to know If I ever was a child I was tied up like a boat On a button like a coat Set free for the wild I'd jump to jolt my clumsy blood While my white, green eyes Cry like a windowpane Can my cold heart change Even out of spite? I saw Behind my brain A haunted stain It never fades I hunt For the kind of pain I can take And I cry like a windowpane Can my cold heart change Overnight? So I won't ever want to touch Your heart too much Or hold you too tight I saw Behind my brain A haunted stain It never fades I hunt For the kind of pain I can take I never was alone Long enough to know If I ever was a child