I been in that war, but I ain't safe
My dawg just finished trial, and lost the case (goddamn)
Couple days before I was pallbearer and buried Jay
I ain't walk up on his casket, when it's up
I ain't want that to be the last time I seen his face (damn)
When I seen my tear fall, I ain't cry in a while, but I seen blood (blood)
Man this feelin' deep, we ain't lose connects
We ain't talk, but that's still my thug (my nigga)
Why I felt his soul when I was huggin' her tight
When I gave his momma a hug (come here)
I'm still mad, tryna rekindle the flame, but you know it's still love
I'm tryin'
But it's only so much that a nigga can take
Inside I'm dyin'
Everyday feel like my last
In the morning I won't be awake
Poured all my love, been tryna make this mountain move
Uh, I still be tryin' even though I know it's impossible
How could I be so foolish for believing in love?
You know it's a limit, the moments I got with you and this time ain't enough
Why BG lost federal trial, it got my head spinnin'
Grandma asked me when was I in peace, I told her it's been a minute
They said I beat the streets, but I promise it don't seem like I'm winning
God keep a close eye on me, you know how I get when I'm healin'
Know how it get when I'm dealin, suicidal thoughts, I be trippin'
I been outta touch with my feelings, emotionally scarred, but I'm willin'
They say I'm weird 'cause I'm different, I still won't change with these millions
I cry a pain 'cause I feel it, they ain't say bad news but I hear it
I'm tryin'
But it's only so much that a nigga can take
Inside I'm dyin'
Everyday feel like my last
In the morning I won't be awake
Ayy, I be tryna move my feet but my heart just got me stuck (I'm stuck)
When I start to see that they care
That's when they showed me they don't give a fuck (I see it)
When I love, my heart start beatin', I can't let you in easy
Why should I be the one to stay, when I know you gon' leave?
Miss Tish wanted me to talk at Jay funeral (I couldn't)
But I was tryna stay strong, even though I was vulnerable (still hurtin')
I done had 23 once before, but I lost him two times
We wasn't on good times before he died
I wished I called his line (shoulda called you brother)
The shit that we was fighting over, we coulda gotta got over it (coulda gotta over it)
Had our differences since 2019, but nobody noticed it
I still loved you like my brother, I hoped you know it (I hope you know it, nigga)
Embracin' all my feelings like a poet (like a poet)
I just seen the Devil flash right cross my eyes
In my dreams I seen the shovel, bury me alive
All your friends in here, yeah, all my brothers died (all my brothers dead)
Baby, I need you here, just right here by my side (hold me tight)
Feel like bad luck is me, feel like I'm cursed
I know everybody go through shit, but I go through the worst (I feel that)
Hurt people hurt people, I lied when I said I believe him (I lied)
I wouldn't be surprised that outta the blue, that my heart'll stop beating
I showed him my weakness
I'm tryin'
But it's only so much that a nigga can take
Inside I'm dyin'
Everyday feel like my last
In the morning I won't be awake
You know like, real niggas go through shit, you feel me?
I only tried to hide it 'cause I know this shit be real, you feel what I'm sayin'?
I can't hide this shit, this shit just be me, and that's who I am
I feel this shit, you know what I'm sayin'?
Like every step of the way it's always somethin' else
Every time I open my eyes it's somethin', I close 'em, it's somethin' else
And I wake up and open again, it's somethin' else, it's just my life
