Rolodex

The part Of this Comes quick And painless Leaving it up Tossing a die Picking a stone To hold on to What could I change? What I became Would this have made You want to? Try to stay together for the kids It's easier to forget about yourself And what's good about you It's cool and sunny outside So why the fuck am I Near asleep again this afternoon Best plans Laid out Rough sketch No painting Adrift Apart Bereft It's telling Daughter or son Flat or a house Credit or debt We'll make it What could we change? What all becomes Would this have made A difference Try to stay together for the kids Remember what I loved about you When we met before the mortgage Piano lessons marriage counselors In our separate beds Until I leave and take the boys to school Sitting with the engine running You'll never find another half to make you whole Am I terrified of being alone? Did you ever love me? Will you ever forgive me?