I still got some struggles but He testin' me
I pray that everyday He bringin' out the best in me
Gotta keep my cool, even when the devil mess with me
Gotta watch my moves, react with love they ain't expecting me
I ain't gon' think 'bout what they sayin' no more stressin' me
Cause they ain't God they not the ones who be blessin' me
They see I changed I know it happened unexpectedly
But I know it was Gods plan this was my destiny
For a couple years I been lost to tell you the truth
I didn't wanna get close so I got further from you
Started to neglect my parents imma do what imma do
Ain't nobody gunna stop me ain't no way I'm gon' lose
My Heart bleedin' but I'm fightin' off these demons
Pray to God for more healin' tired of hidin' these feelings
Been through lot but He just testin' me he's got a good reason
Gotta stay strong no one said that this was gunna be easy
I grew up in the church but left I wasn't looking back
Like I've lived this long without him look at me I'm still intact
I been bruised cut and robbed, double crossed I been attacked
I've been gone from home for months making money from the trap
I was tryna heal with the pills and the potions
Didn't wanna deal with the pain and emotions
Mama told me to be careful gotta watch where you goin'
Pops told me you got God on your side and you know it
I still got some struggles but He testin' me
I pray that everyday He bringin' out the best in me
Gotta keep my cool, even when the devil mess with me
Gotta watch my moves, react with love they ain't expecting me
I ain't gon' think 'bout what they sayin' no more stressin' me
Cause they ain't God they not the ones who be blessin' me
They see I changed I know it happened unexpectedly
But I know it was Gods plan this was my destiny
I got a hundred different problems I know people doubting me
But I got so many angels and they lookin down on me
And I'm tryna do better make my mama proud of me
And my circle got smaller I'm careful who's surrounding me
The devil on my shoulder he still tryna do his work
Tryna slow me down and make me go back to what I was before
Tryna get me back in the life where I was suffering and hurt
Couldn't figure out my purpose didn't care what I was worth
I was burnin' in the fire with sinners and my addictions
Cold heart held me back from my purpose and my ambitions
Wrong cards that were dealt to me tired of bein' a victim
I was blind couldn't see all my blessings through what Im missing, yea
I was never home cause I had to be busy
If I was by myself alone that would be risky
If I had time to think the depression hit quickly
So I'd pour a lil drink and get up in a jiffy
I still got some struggles but He testin' me
I pray that everyday He bringin' out the best in me
Gotta keep my cool, even when the devil mess with me
Gotta watch my moves, react with love they ain't expecting me
I ain't gon' think 'bout what they sayin' no more stressin' me
Cause they ain't God they not the ones who be blessin' me
They see I changed I know it happened unexpectedly
But I know it was Gods plan this was my destiny
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Testing Me - Ayomilly
