Lullaby

Every time I die a little more inside Money told me to speak on it, I'ma speak on it, fuck it It's mumble rap man it's, it's mumble rap right That's what we doin'? Alright Yeah Wonder if God heard me pray, when I was tryna repent If he didn't I know he heard my mother cry over rent Then you wonder why the mood inside this room is so tense No offense, but I don't really got nowhere to go vent Oh yeah, success is like a drug and I've been high on it since Feel like I've wasted all the money, and the time that I spent Maybe the tears inside my eyes had me blind with revenge I told her even if we crash I'm gon' ride 'til the end There I go lying again, don't know why I pretend Hold up, let me try this again Lord you know I never open up Abusing drugs never thinking I was dope enough She's over me when I'm the one that she's supposed to love At least my heart broke enough for the both of us They told me play your part, though we different you smart Let her lay in your bed, though never let a bitch in your heart Still around the same ones that I was with from the start Though the distance got us drifting apart Felt betrayed, swear to God 'til this day man this shit hit my heart Wanted to shine so bad that I got left in the dark Still love you, can't help but see that kid in the park Runnin' around the town lookin' for some shit we can stir Any issue I was right there with it, I was I bought my dream house, but I been having nightmares in it The game ugly, just tell me why you can't love me Or why the f******u're ashamed of me, you can't judge me That's why I stay numb, and the smartest thing I ever did was play dumb Staying up nights 'til my day comes Old memories had me wishin' that we stayed young I'm a mess, thinking less now I'm saying more I talked to God about you, so I'm praying more That's why I smoke a hundred blunts straight Pops left moms cried for a month straight Used to cry too but I would never show it Superwoman feel blessed if you ever know her Look at all this shit that me made it through They bugged the house, and they raid it too If that ain't ironic, I'm a crazy fool Play it cool baby, play it cool They don't acknowledge my accomplishments My Opp was just an optimist I'm copping shit but still I'm not convinced that this is opulence I could probably fuck Pocahontas right out her moccassins Killing everything that I'm authoring like a offering Ten stitches with my limbs twitching You ever went through withdrawal 'til your skin itches? Screaming fuck what you think, tears falling while I write it down smudging the ink Please pour out a couple of drinks Sometimes I wish that I was up there with Chinx You wouldn't even care if I ever die So I wrote this for the tears that you never cry Lullaby --- Lullaby - Belly