Troubled Man

It's hard enough for a black man tryin' to make it today Strugglin' to find the right way So I say, times is hard, word to God Recessions, depressions, the whole nine yards That itself makes a brother wanna break But bein' an entertainer puts the icin' on the cake Cause I can remember when I looked up to Kurtis Blow And said that's where I gotta go So here I am, paid in the rap trade But still gettin' played, for my darker shade That's not the only P-R-O-B-L-E-M Man, that's just the beginnin' of them For example, I can't walk the streets alone, ? without bein' known Don't get me wrong, cause deep in my heart I do love it But I can't even dig up my nose in public, huh MC Rell couldn't have said it no plainer Yeah, that's the life of an entertainer And the times are so hard to understand That it makes me a troubled man (I got so much trouble on my mind) I like women, but I hate womankind Love can be just too much for the mind Cause I've toured the world from state to state And wouldn't lay down tonight without havin a mate Married girls in tight miniskirts That left they husband waitin at the concert I don't discriminate with girls that I talk to I take em Mello-Yello to Chocolate Yoo-hoo But now I couldn't find the right girl to fit me Not even if she walked into my face and bit me You see it's hard to make a woman your wife When you've been humpin married woman the most of your life You better believe that's true, word up Cause if it happened to me, then it can happen to you I'm not tryin to say that a woman is scandalous I'm just showin you who the troubled man is (I got so much trouble on my mind) Brothers from the past ? ? in the streets of Bed-Stuy or my ?Sara J? class Some of them are cool, some of them at times can be a bother Thinkin' I got jobs to give like Roy Rogers I try to explain I'm not on tour yet And they say, "You think you're all that? Yeah, I bet!" So when I see em on the solo tip I gotta throw joints to prove my point Just when I thought that I had the neighborhood support Here comes another battle to be fought, huh You know they even tried to start a AIDS rumor Diggin' the kind of life, that would maybe doom a Brother of my principle, you'd think some of these people Would be more sensible, because a lie like that Didn't bring my s*x flow to an end Man, I'm still gettin' skins! And the beat goes on until the thrill is gone And life is the same old song And maybe one day you can understand What it's like to be a troubled man (I got so much trouble on my mind) --- Troubled Man - Big Daddy Kane