Fumbling

I don't want to stay up fumbling all night Waiting for something that I can't control I was raised to only focus on the ones I love And it's you now, you know I walk in alone And if I would have known that you weren't here I would have just stayed home I think you would have just stayed home I think you would have smiled when you saw the walls They're covered in paisley and cigarette tar The kind of room where the lights can't get low enough Oh, but I had you for a second there My second rate love And your calm disposition And now I just feel so unsure But I don't want to stay up fumbling all night Waiting for something that I can't control I was raised to only focus on the ones I love And it's you now, you know And I don't want to wake up freaking out, cold sweat Shaking and sleeping in all my clothes I was raised to only live For the ones that I hold dear And it's you now as well And it's you now In my mind, we walk home alone You take everything you can from a 7-Eleven Kick in a condo door I watch as you admire the art on the walls We kiss in the kitchen And you pretend that they're yours Leave a card on the counter And then we'll walk back home Oh, but I had you for a second there My second rate love And your calm disposition And now I just feel so unsure And I don't want to wake up freaking out, cold sweat Shaking and sleeping in all my clothes I was raised to only live For the ones that I hold dear And it's you now as well I'm always looking for a room that you're leaving But I don't want to stay up fumbling all night Waiting for something that I can't control I was raised to only focus on the ones I love And it's you now, you know And I don't want to wake up freaking out, cold sweat Shaking and sleeping in all my clothes I was raised to only live For the ones that I hold dear And it's you now as well And it's you now --- Fumbling - Boniface