Afterthought

I woke up this morning still wearing that tie The one with the hammer and sickle design Threw up all the pills my doctor prescribed And I went out to fetch me some air This world was so crowded with billboards and signs Two trucks double parked in parallel lines I thought about breakfast but settled on wine Always choose hunger over despair And what's possible over what's there Because it isn't as though we get what we want No matter how hard or long we have fought And my happiness is a mere afterthought When I'm with her I keep it in mind Then she leaves and I've run out of time I sat down today in a high barber's chair To hear the town gossip and clean up my hair He said she was seen on the bus station stairs With her suitcase threatening to walk Not sure how true it was but I'll hazard a guess Probably not more and it's probably not less If that college kid bookie was accepting bets The brackets would mostly be chalk It's safe to assume that she's lost But it isn't as though we get what we want No matter how hard or long we have fought And my happiness is a mere afterthought When I'm with her I keep it in mind Then she's gone and I've run out of time I can't be concerned with the state that I'm in At the height of the scandal with vertigo spins I'll take every audition til I'm Errol Flynn And bring it to life off the page And I'll get up tomorrow still wearing that tie The one with the skull and the crossbone designs If I'm asked if I miss her it's easy to lie In this world that's called more of the same No I wouldn't feel proud or ashamed 'Cause it isn't as though we get what we want No matter how hard or long we have fought And my happiness is a mere afterthought When I'm with her I keep it in mind Then she leaves and I've run out of time --- Afterthought - Conor Oberst